When I’m caught with lack of motivation, discouraged or feel like all hope is lost and frustrated with my plateful of tasks, I reach a breaking point. Yesterday was one of those days and I am not totally sure but it may have had to do with the fact that I failed yet another test this semester and its just straight up disheartening when you can do the homework perfectly fine! [sorry mini-rant]. Anyways I got to the breaking point rather quick and it took over so much that I really felt like I was paralyzed from being able to do anything. So instead of trying to get more homework done or do something else to cross off my list, I instead went to the gym. The gym is a great chance for me to refocus myself by focusing on something else, something other than my current life situation, school or anything making my day so full. I have been getting into rowing for 25mins or 5000m. I have also been working up to 100+ Watts on average. I’ve done this now for about three weeks. Its really awesome and keeps me focusing on moving forward and getting to 5000m. Its great and I usually leave feeling alot better about life and ready to embrace life with a clear perspective. Endorphins have a way of doing that. I love the feeling after working out and it is such a blessing to be able to move and work out. I try to remind myself of how many people can’t do it. So I do it for them. I feel very fortunate in that way. And I will admit that before the accident I probably would have rather slacked some days. But do to the accident and having days, weeks, months and almost years of not being able to do physical activities, it is such a blessing to walk to the gym and row and then walk back to my apartment. Its freedom. Its beauty. Its a little thing that can change my day around into the way that I would like. Endorphin’s have a way of doing that.
Endorphins have a way of doing that.