“Life comes at you fast” is an understatement. Yesterday my world changed. Strangely it wasn’t anything that happened to me, it was things that happened to my family and friends. Rewinding to a few nights ago, I received a phone call from a friend. I missed it and she didn’t leave a message but I figured it was just to catch up. She then called me two or three more times till we finally were able to connect. Thankfully her news and change was exciting and wonderful as she and her husband step into the next chapter of their lives. For me its still a bit strange to remember that a good percentage of my friends are married, engaged and some are even are pregnant or already have a kid. I’m only 21. As I even write this, it kind of blows my mind! Anyways that is happy and momentous change.
However, last night more change came unexpectedly. I kept trying to get ahold of my mom all day and for some reason she didn’t call me back. I finally decided to try one more time in the evening and she finally picked up. I learned she was in a car accident. When I went to bed I couldn’t shake the reality. I still remember when I was younger, probably around 10 years old and she was in an accident. It happened in the morning as she headed to work and all of my siblings and me hadn’t even left for school yet. My dad received the car and herded us together and gave us a hug. Then he told us what happened, thankfully my mom was ok. Thankfully G-d saved her and she didn’t seem to have too many injuries and was home by the time we got back from school. It’s been hard not being able to go give her a hug and be the support she has been for me, as I live at the University I go to. Thankfully she was saved again. She is like an angel to me and it hurts my soul so much to know she is having hard days. It stinks because its hard to tell if she is alright or if something like whipp lash or anything will come out of this. Its hard because I understand. I understand all too well.
Both these experiences, with hearing about change through phone calls are different. One is happy and exciting while the other is painful, hard and challenging. Its crystal clear how difficult change can be; because sometimes change is not voluntary. Change can happen without your statement, without your voice, without your will. Sometimes change happens the way G-d wants it to happen, or the way He lets destiny kick in. Change is hard. Change is something that must be accepted. But more than that, the reality that you are not 100% in charge of your own life and your own will, that is something that causes anxiety to some. For me, I have learned and realized that faith in G-d is the answer. For me, believing in G-d means that I secure my life in His will and His plan. (check out Jeremiah 29:11)
Anyways…bottom line is that “Life comes at you fast”, you must learn to accept this reality.