What a blessing it is to be able to feel. To be able to hurt and yet be able to feel joy and happiness. It is my belief that we, as human beings have been designed to feel. Its a struggle, every day to wake up to a blank slate filled with uncertainty. Then throughout the day you have the opportunity to paint that canvas with events, occurrences, thoughts, dreams, actions, words and feelings.
I still recall the ending of my first real relationship. It hurt so much and my body literally went into a numbness of shock. It was painful, even if it was for the better. That heartache sent my life into another type of change. I recall my mom kept reminding me though, that it was such a blessing to have a normal feeling. To be able to even have feelings.
I guess that makes me more grateful for the ability to feel. To feel pain and heartache but yet to know that one day I will have happy and energetic feelings. After my joyful day on Friday of sharing my story, I was ecstatic and pleased with the way the day played out. This was after a night of connecting with audiences of all ages and education with robots. Then too, last night, I also had another robot outing. With so much happiness, excitement and positive energy life felt great.
Then I woke up this morning tired, fatigued and lethargic. I felt hopeless and pained and yet nothing happened. Sometimes I think its just a rebound after such a mountain of good emotions. As I struggle through the rest of today, I will hold in my mind, gratitude for the wonderful blessing to be able to feel.