It’s sad but true, “you can’t handle the truth”. People are in such a rush that when they see you they simply say “hey, how’s it going” but don’t wait around long enough to hear the answer. It’s like you could respond “oh hey, I am dying” and they would be twenty steps to far to hear your response. Its really sad.
Thank G-d that is not my case, that is just an extreme case to prove my point. First off, people seem too much in a rush to really care. Second, when you actually stop to respond and if you respond with something negative “oh, I’m a really tired” or “my head hurts” it seems like you are complaining and people don’t seem to like to be around that. So instead we hide behind an easy line of “I’m good, and you?”. We are not honest with others in those cases and we are not being honest with ourselves. This happens to me all the time.
Maybe I’m the only one in the world who does not have good days all the time. However, people I know, only want to hear good things. They only like my statuses if it shows that I am doing well, enjoying life and that my traumatic accident is far gone. However, it may have been three years ago, but I still get exhausted, have headaches and sometimes just have really crumy days. But they don’t want to hear about. Especially for those who have been through this whole journey with me who thought they were going to lose me, they only want to hear that I am getting back on track towards being “normal”. I am not. I will not. Why? Because I have a traumatic brain injury. Brain’s heal but they are never the same. In some ways I have improved and been able to build my brain to be better. However, in other areas I’m stuck struggling with remembering words, having brain blanks and simple problem solving. This is life of post-TBI. So do I sit around a mope about it. Well, yesterday, yes; but today, no. Today I am ready to be honest with not only myself but with others. To allow those who truly love me to be able to help me through this and to allow myself room to be delicate. Room to turn to G-d for help. Room for growth. Room for change. There is truth in needing change. And I desperately need change.
Are you ready to handle the truth?