The past 24 hours have been a whirlwind. The next 24 hours will also be a whirlwind. Why, you might ask? Well I was just offered an experience of a lifetime, but I am caught in the middle of irrational fears, lack of control and much uncertainty. Yesterday I had a convincing reason to believe the door of opportunity was closed and it really frustrated me. However, this morning, when I woke up and eventually checked my phone, I noticed the email of chance. The email that I had been waiting for, for months, maybe even years. The opportunity presented itself. Yet now that the door is open, I am questioning whether to walk through it or to wait for another one, one that may never come and one that may leave me regretting I didn’t take this one. Its all a part of life, uncertainty. I struggle so much with it, despite the fact that I know nothing is ever certain, regardless of how certain it may seem. This is a door of opportunity that I have focused my thoughts so much on and yet when it opened itself to me, I step and act like maybe it isn’t something I want. I allow the negativity of others to throw me off track and I need to get back on. I need to decide. Thats right, me. I need to decide. This is my life. I can either choose to accept opportunities presented to me that I believe, G-d blessed me with or I can reject it. However, I am feeling like its something I should take and embrace head on. I should not let irrational and even rational fear encroach on my life. I should not let the adversary prevent me from doing what I am supposed to. I should have faith in G-d and trust that whats meant to be will be and that G-d willing, I choose in a way that brings glory to Him. G-d has granted us free will and He blesses us with opportunities. Its all in how we react to the scenarios thrown our way. Its the trouble with the curve that can sometimes keep us on the ground instead of dreaming in the air. I feel like the difficulty in making a decisions proves how important this decision is. It convinces me that it is breaking my limitations, my comfort zone. I wrote a few weeks back on how happiness can break walls. I feel like doing things that are challenging and difficult also break barriers. Stepping onto the ledge of the cliff just to see the gorgeous view is what the whole hike up 10000 feet was for, Don’t get to the site and stop. Keep going. Keep climbing. Chase dreams. Don’t regret. Live in a way to bring glory to Him. and most importantly live with a faith that challenges you out of your comfort zone.
Making hard decisions is never easy. Thats why they are worth it.