This past week was crazy, chaotic and frustrating. There were people who wasted my time. People who judged and hurt me. There didn’t seem to be enough time. I was exhausted and tired. I was running from one thing to the next. Then on friday afternoon after class I was helping with a bioengineering lab by walking on a treadmill and it did not seem to want to work. It was frustrating and then there was a storm and the one second electrical storm ruined any momentum that we had.
When I got to my apartment, after walking through the rain, I was exhausted and ready for the weekend. I turned on some music. Took a nice warm shower and put on a cute outfit. Did my hair and makeup and my energy felt sparks of change. I met up with my parents and we headed to our local Rabbi’s house. Just walking in, confirmed the Shabbat feeling I was experiencing. The dinner was tasty and the prayers reminded me of the large crowd I experienced at the hotel in Jerusalem on Shabbat a few months ago. I shared my Israel experience and we had many beautiful conversations. There was something different about this shabbat. I felt like I was in another world and didn’t want to leave. The Rabbi brought up a conversation of something that I have thought about for a while and been frustrated with. The conversation at first brought up some angst within me but was slowly building up to me smiling and laughing and listening to every word. I felt like it was the start to answer to a prayer I’ve been praying for awhile. I am grateful for the conversations and the people there.
When we left and were headed home it was like walking back to reality and away from the spirituality of Shabbat dinner. The Shabbat energy was still with me and made me realize how special it is to be able to experience and embrace the beauty of Shabbat, a “soul day”. I am so grateful and extremely happy with the way I was share Shabbat dinner with my parents this past week. May this week be filled with much health, happiness, safety and blessings!
Good things and much change are coming. I can feel it in my bones and my soul!