So I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been busy moving across the country. Being a foreigner in a country I call home only to realize that home is where you are. Where you feel comfortable. Where you feel love and cherished. Where you feel important and often at peace with yourself. Since moving I feel overly blessed. My job is hard and challenging but also so fun and so many cool perks. I work with someone from MIT and feel honored to be a part of a group that acts like family. The manager is like the mother figure and then the girl is like the oldest daughter, then there is the middle child who thinks differently, the younger son who does his own thing but totally gangs up with older sister. And then there’s me. I’m like the young adopted daughter who is still trying to find her place struggling day in and day out. I’m enjoying it every step of the way and I like the challenge. I’m learning so much everyday and periodically there is some sweet gigs where I get to go “play” with really expensive engineering toys. It’s awesome!
The people I work with are so kind and calm compared to my last internship and these people seem very real, not superficial or materialistic(so it seems).
I’ve been spontaneous while being here and don’t really plan to far in advanced and just take it one day, one week at a time. It’s been quite an adventure and reminds me a bit of my Germany and Israel trips. Just very in the moment. So much so that it’s flying by and I’ve almost been working and living here for a month!
I feel so much freedom in being me here and I feel accepted. I feel like sometimes back “home” where I’m from on the other side of the country I try too hard and don’t succeed. I don’t find what I want but I guess it’s what I’ve needed. Here I try a little bit and it seems to go a long way and then there seems to be so much reciprocity and it’s such a beautiful thing! I went to one Jewish event the first full day I was here and have since then gone to numerous others and have thankfully been invited for Shabbat dinners every week thus far! I feel so grateful to have Jewish friends, to have Jewish community, to be able to be myself and not be afraid to stand up for what I believe. I feel so at peace and so in the right place at the right time. I’m so thankful for the plans Gd has in store because I often feel peaceful when I’m at peace with my situation.
With that being said there have been numerous curve balls that have kept me on guard with continuing to learn how the real world is. So it is still very much a struggle and frustration with certain situations but I have felt more trusting and less worried about it. This may also have to do with the fact that not being in university has been amazing and I’m learning so much and hopefully actually retaining it. I’m less stressed and able to enjoy this beautiful life Gd has been blessing me with. I’m so grateful for this adventure and getting to live somewhere outside my comfort zone–because that’s when I find myself, trust Gd, and feel surprisingly most comfortable.