Today I am grateful for second chances. I am grateful to be alive. To feel. To know the fragility of life. To know that when it comes down to it, life is rather simple. However we allow “noise” to get in the way. This noise ruins the frequency and the results are bad signals.
I am grateful for my mom to be able to remind me how blessed I am. She reminded me this evening how I had one day. That one day was the day of the accident. And even that day wasn’t that bad; because at the end of it, I still survived. However it wasn’t as good of a day for others in that accident. Its a bad day that many still and will have for the rest of their lives. It seems I sometimes let it. I sometimes allow it to make me feel like I am still living it. I suppose on days of headaches or random other pains, those are reminders. However, those do not define me. I do not allow them. I refuse to be just the accident girl. G-d gave me a second chance for a reason.
Maybe it was because I didn’t say goodbye to my parents that afternoon of the accident. Maybe it’s because I just started college. Maybe it was a million different reasons, half of which I will probably never know. What I do know is that G-d believes in me. He knows what I can and cannot handle and He throws curve-balls along the way. I am grateful that on days when life is tough, He picks me up, dusts me off and straightens my ball cap. He taps me on the shoulder and smiles and its almost like I hear Him saying to me, “we cannot always hit home runs, sometimes we have to strike out once or twice”.
This reminds me of a conversation with one of my friends about how engineering is basically learning how to fail. I just went along with it. “You’re right, Thomas Edison didn’t invent the light-bulb by succeeding, he had to fail thousands of times first”. I suppose this could be the reason I was given a second chance. Maybe I didn’t completely fail (or maybe I did) at whatever my purpose is. However G-d believes in me enough to give me a second chance. For that I am forever grateful and hope that I am able to live up to His expectations.