Despite what some may think, I am not a fan of flying. In fact, it scares me to fly. The only way I step on a plane is that I buffer up enough courage and faith that G-d wants me to get where I am headed. Today scared me though. The flight started off fine, however there was warning of weather upon arrival. When we got closer, the flight attendant confirmed that weather was up ahead and so to hold on. Then our plane shook and dropped down. Then again and I think one more time. There was a lot of common and my body was tense. I got scared. Really scared and looking out the window wasn’t exactly comforting when all I could see was white from the thick clouds surrounding we were going through. The plane was a bit bumpy and I was very uneasy not sure if and when the next drop would be. My brother is awesome though and happened to be sitting next to me, he let me squeeze his hand as much as I needed to feel even the slightest bit more comfortable. Then amidst the craziness I was feeling the way my thoughts were swirling around, there was a rainbow right outside gleaming against the white fluffy clouds. It was shining through and appeared to be random. My mom also happened to be sitting nearby and when I said that I saw a rainbow, she reminded me of the meaning of rainbows. I didn’t want to respond as my body and my mind were still freaking out a bit internally. She said, “remember rainbows mean G-d’s promises”…she then went in how to think of this like Disneyland and how I’ve been on much crazier rides. All I know is my body went into flight or fight mode and there was nothing to do but hold on and keep faith that everything would be ok. Both wavered and shook me. The lack of control and inability to do anything to help myself was frustrating, however, it reminded me I’m not in charge and I cannot plan what G-d has in store. Even though He may take us through turbulence, it is in order for us to grow in faith, trust and reliance upon Him. For me, the rainbow was what I needed to see at a time I needed it most. It was a divine sighting and I’m grateful that G-d was with me and helped carry us through to our destination. Today I’m especially grateful for rainbows.
ps. this song has always been one of my favs