I awoke to this beautiful song sent from a good friend and its calming melody brought joy to me throughout the day as I kept finding myself humming it. It reminds me how and what beauty is. It’s interesting because I feel like its a topic of conversation that has come up alot in the past couple months, I just somehow seemed to be missing the message. Or like the message was more hidden until today.
There was a conversation a few weeks ago where my cousin was telling me a story about my grandma, my bubie, and how she would and still does say, “oh its just so beautiful. you are so beautiful. this is beautiful. beautiful. beautiful…” you get the point. The funny thing, is the way he imitates her voice, it just cracks me up and makes me smile. It makes me smile because my bubie, is an artist and has traveled much of the world. She has been through incredible pain and she has loved. She loves so much. She sees so much beauty in all that is around her. I like to think that I’m like her. She is strong, sensitive, positive, filled with energy and joy. And she goes out of her way for you and treats you like you are the most important person in the world. At least she does that for me and I’ve seen it when I’ve brought friends to her house to try her famous crepes or shnitzel or anything of her. To see her house filled with pictures of her family and her paintings. Oh my her paintings. She is quite talented! The thing that stands out most to me about my bubie, is not anything she has or gives me, its who she is. I have always seen so much light and joy in her. I’ve also always seen so much beauty and blessing in her. I think its because of who she is and it just shines through. Don’t get me wrong, I know she is not perfect. She is very human and I’ve seen that side of her too. Maybe its the way she is even while being human that makes me love her and want to tell her just how beautiful she is!
Next conversation that pops into my head was with my friend KA and she mentioned how she is trying to be a more beautiful person. Not by what she is wearing but by just being a more beautiful person. To live a life that is beautiful. I am inspired by her desires. She is honest, open, and real. She is also a true friend and will be there in your time of need. I feel blessed to have met her and grateful to call her a friend. I recall over summer when I got sick and like family, she took me to the nearest Urgent Care just to make sure that I was ok. The next couple days she came over just to watch tv with me as I rested. It was sweet. It was beautiful.
The following conversation was with my good friend JP who I serve homeless people with. We also have been trying to get groups together to go swing dancing and its been a blast. JP is like a brother and we can have open conversations. We’ve had conversations about how girls think and how guys think. Its always interesting. I guess the thing that surprises me the most about him, is that his personality shines through beautifully. JP is not a student currently, yet works just as hard if not harder to save money and figure out when to go back to school. JP’s heart for the homeless is inspiring. However his compassion extends past the homeless and fills into the individuals who he chooses to spend his time with. He is a friend who is willing to invest in time with you. JP goes far out of his way for people he cares about. I know his circumstances are not the best but I am inspired by the way he does not allow his brokenness to consume him. Instead, he has a heart of service and is compassion example which I try to follow especially when dealing with the homeless. He has a beautiful personality and friendship with anyone he knows. AND, he knows a lot of people and has introduced me to even more of his friends who are just as awesome and beautiful.
I now find myself thinking of a billion and one things that are beautiful and the conversations which I have been having that have been reminding me just how beautiful life is and how beautiful the people I am surrounded by are. I feel inspired and my heart feels as though it is gaining droplets of love through the compassionate and beautiful souls which I am allowing myself to see with clearer eyes now.
I am thankful for GTB: good, true and beautiful philosophy.I’ll have to go into Mr.C’s GTB conversations back in high school another time. As for tonight, I am ending on the note by adding in that today the most beautiful thing I experienced was realizing that my peer was also my friend.