If you’ve stumbled upon this blog for the first time or are an avid reader, welcome. Today I invite you to join me alongside this journey of life and embracing change daily. Specifically this weekend has brought much clarity to my mind.
It’s not like I was unsettled. Actually I was far from it, as Wednesday my brain seemed to reach its max capacity of information it could and would hold for the time being. Instead of studying more for my test on Thursday I was distracted on social media and I didn’t feel guilty about it. Then Thursday morning I took my test and released some of the information trying to be retained in my brain. I finished homework after my soccer game and then had a great heart to heart with a good friend.
A few weeks ago my friend and I stumbled into a conversation and love, dating and relationships. It’s interesting and amazing how much that conversation changed my perspective and in such small yet vital ways too! This friend made a few comments that changed my perspective to such positive, encouragement and faith that one day it’ll all work out with the right person. In addition this friend helped me to have more faith in G-d! What amazed me is the fact that this friend is Buddhist and so we have differing religious beliefs (which if you know me, is nothing new…but still). Flash forward to a couple weeks later and this friend and I are sitting in my apartment updating and understanding the latest situations in one another’s life. I feel grateful for this friendship.
That was the first sight of major clarity in a while. Then while amdist all my studying for the big FE test, I found that some of the knowledge of engineering I actually knew and understand and in the peak it was that all that I have and continue to learn is almost all connected whether the variables are the same is up to the subject. The clairty was in the fact that concepts of the laws of nature were universal and just applied in different ways. Woah!! Talk about mind blowing clairty!!!
Then there was last night while I was eating dinner with my parents. Something happened and I quickly got frustrated with them. Then things turned around and we had a nice meal. It was when I got back to my apartment and was getting ready for bed that I gained insight into a recurring childhood situation. My parents have always loved me and they tend to show it in a way of concern and pride. The clairty came in realizing that this is their way of loving me.
To come full circle, today in the quiet of the sabbath, I walked around my universities campus and found myself staring at the gorgeous blossoming flowers. As well as being able to finally see, understand and grasp how so many buildings around campus are mission styled. It was all from going on a different path throughout campus rather than my usual route. From one corner I saw the apartment buildings analogous to the mission styled building in San Diego at the Mission I had once visited to learn and write a report on. It was almost magical as I walk and what I saw today!
I feel grateful and blessed for clairty in areas I didn’t expect and in some ways the wisdom and discernment I have been seeking i seemed to allow myself to see, hear and participate in. Thank G-d for wisdom, beauty and truth!