Where to even begin…
I guess we should start at the very beginning…
Ok well maybe the beginnning of the week.
So last Friday was the start of Passover and Shabbat, its like a grand slam two for one special. Such a holy day. It was amazing as I had the day off from school and was able to head home and help my mom prepare for the festive occasion and week ahead. It was incredible and to have some fellow Jewish students was wonderful. People who knew what was going on and who understood and or could speak hebrew was so great!! Then close to midnight pretty much everyone left, except for one of my friends who within the past week I have grown so close to. We helped with cleaning up and we talked and talked and talked about good, true and beautiful things happening in our lives with thanks to G-d! We stayed up so late singing and talking and laughing and making memories. Truly a beautiful experience. Then it carried into Shabbat and for the first time ever it truly felt peaceful and quiet and welcoming of the shabbat spirit in my home with my family. I enjoyed it soooooo very much and it was rather special to me. I am so thankful that my friend brought that spirit with her. Then we continued the conversations and went for a walk and just enjoyed being in the moment. It carried on through sunday as that was also considered a holy day, a “Yom Tov”. However it was noticeable that it was no longer shabbat despite the very similar qualities. Amazing such an inspirational and divine weekend of such spiritual growth and challenging and wonder.
The best way to put it into words is that this week has been like finding puzzle pieces that seemed hidden and slowly or quickly snapping them into place where they fit so properly and comfortably.
During the week it was also nice as I had little homework, was able to paint, read, watch tv and hang out with friends. Strangely I struggled with weakness and headaches much of this week but thankfully seem to be under control now. It was rather odd and a bit scary the other day but thank G-d everything seems better now.
The enlightening conversations of the weekend seemed to carry into the week as I struggled to have very light hearted or meaningless conversations this week. Its like my soul was yearn, the spark in my heart was trying to allow a flame. I was able to understanding and see situations with more clear of eyes and ears than I had in the past. I felt like I could be me and I accepted and welcomed it. I wasn’t fighting with my inner self so much. It was rather peaceful which was wonderful!! I was able to think deeper and ponder further on certain concepts and ideas which my friend and I discussed and it was so great. She is such a wonderful friend, very inclusive, strongly encouraging and has some of the best advice!! I am so blessed to get to know her and spend Shabbat’s with her.
Then came Thursday night when the last two holy days of Passover began and of course Shabbat on Friday night, so again a double whammy!!! It was awesome as I wasn’t feeling well Friday early on in the day but thankfully felt well enough in the afternoon to go sit in on a lecture for one of my classes. Then I headed over to my friends apartment and one of our other friends was already there and we sat, ate and talked. So peaceful and reminded me of Israel. As did the previous Friday when I had come home early and helped my mom a bit and then taken it easy before the evening. These feelings of Israel I have realized are just wonderful peaceful experiences I associate with Israel because I have strongly experienced and sensed these situations there. However, these good vibes are very much a Shabbat incoming or a Holy Day and recognizing it and truly resting and connecting with G-d and with those you are surrounded by. I love it!! Such an amazing feeling!!!
As the sun went down, in the town where we were I began to help make dinner by simply cutting up tons of fruits and veggies, such a delicious treat!!!! Thank G-d for so much natural, tasty, flavorful and colorful treats! We had a wonderful Shabbat dinner which led to wonderful discussions with two new friends as well as two friends I have been growing with since September but more so recently!! Thank G-d!!!
Anyways the converstations last night and today were so wonderful I feel I need to write them down to at least give the slightest understanding of the amazingness that went down! I will be writing these in the my following posts…. come along for the ride and be a reader by this writers’ side.