today I’m grateful for a job. Last year at this time I was confused what I wanted to do after I graduated and yet here I am, now employed for a great company. In theory I have a great job. Yet I have been so bored for like the past month as I haven’t had much work. I keep asking my managers for work and I get little assignments. I’d like to take more initiative but I’m not even sure how. It’s made me wonder why the heck am I even here. Why did I move across the country and why I am not getting work today. I was made for more. I am smarter than this. I feel like my job makes school look like it was more enjoyable because it was harder. It really makes no sense. However despite all these frustrations, I am grateful to be where I wanted to go. I’m grateful to be able to afford an apartment that can and is so often filled with so much light, thank G-d! I’m thankful for the opportunity to have gone to visit my family because of my job sending me that way. I’m grateful for a way to learn many new things, meet new people and go to new places. It’s definitely interesting. Life is pretty funny that sometimes something we want so much ends up not really being what we want. I’m grateful though. It’s an opportunity to live as an example — I’m still trying to figure that out but still! I’m thankful to be working towards a purposeful cause. Somewhere along the way it got a little covered up and confused. I know that this is part of something bigger. For whatever reason, for now, I’m not supposed to have a lot of work. It’s a frustrating concept for me to understand. I’m grateful though for there still are sparks of feeling as though this is where I am meant to be. Here’s to working and a job, thank G-d for leading me here!
30 days of thanksgiving: day 4