Someone once told me that going to the gym was vain. I was a bit unsure at first but with the explanation I began to understand. Don’t get me wrong, going to the gym is not a bad thing. To get in shape, to stay in shape and to live a healthy life. However, if you are just going to get more buff that is where the vanity lies. It really changed my perspective on going to the gym and looking around at the other people there. You have the whole spectrum.
This same person also doesn’t have facebook, instagram or any of those social media sites. It’s different and very respectful. In some ways, I would like to be better about that. Maybe thats why I am enjoying my facebook fast. I only go on when I get emails telling me that I have new friend requests and even then it sometimes takes a while. Instagram I feel ok with using. Sometimes. But I have a rule to never post pictures of people. Or at least you can’t see their faces. I think it’s all about finding a social media balance. I do however, think its awesome to not be worried about what other people think or are doing (even though I totally still fail at this). I think it provides opportunity to build friendships, do new things and be awesome. All without the whole world watching or knowing every second of your life. Its freeing. You can take a beautiful picture and share it with those you want to or hold onto it for yourself. Its up to you!
While at a career fair this past weekend I got a ton of free tech stuff. I say stuff because thats what it is. By the end I felt disgusted with how much I had despite my animal side being excited for free cool things. My soul hurt. See, my soul is yearning for good, true and beautiful experiences with people. I want to connect on a new level. All I could think of these things were just how vain they are. Yes I have kept them. Yes I intend to give some to friends and family. But the fact I recognize the vanity is something to me.
I don’t think I’ve told you about my “Fast From Shopping”. Since August 28th, I believe, I have not bought any new clothes or shoes or accessories for myself. It has been awesome. Its great because I am finding new ways to wear my clothes and creative ways to create new outfits. I actually think its awesome! I hope to be able to keep this up until the end of the school year but it’d be even more ideal to make it a year. We will see haha. I have received some awesome hand-me downs and freebies and I just roll with it to make it work. It makes me grateful for what I do have. For I feel like I have so much and I am blessed.
Genesis 12-15 talks about how G-d blessed Abraham to be a blessing. These sections also mention that G-d will provide support and guidance for Abraham since Abraham is willing, accepting and ready.
Tonight I went swing dancing with friends for the first time. It was incredible and I really enjoyed it!!! It took my mind off negative energy and thoughts. It was enjoyable and I spun around like it was something I had been doing my whole life. I am grateful for the friends willing to try a new experience and it was lovely!
I know my thoughts are all over the place tonight but this is my flow of conscious and I hope that it helps me let go and allow more thoughts in.
One of my last notes for the evening is how there are people in our lives that we do not know and yet they are there. I say this because I went on a date with this guy the other day who apparently went to the same Jewish camp that I went to back when we were younger. The only thing is that he is older so he would have probably been in my sisters age group. It still blows my mind that we were in the same place at the same time when we were younger and had no clue who the other was. I guess that once again proves G-d’s handiwork and His orchestrating/choreographing of life. Its like my friend who I studied abroad in Germany with and yet we had lived in the same city, been to the same community events and he boyfriend at the time (they are married now) his sister and my sister were friends! Talk about incredible. It really is a small world. It just is overwhelming how there are people in my life that I do not even “know” and yet we might already know each other. Crazy!!