After a restful shabbat (sabbath) and being able to rest, rejuvenate and reboot for the week ahead today has been really helpful. Being able to have time to read, reflect and think has been good for my soul. Then hanging out this evening with one of my good friends and being able to catch up on the past month and on where we hope each of our futures are headed was wonderful. My friend, K, and I have a cool friendship that we happened to talk about tonight. Its funny because she graduate two years ago and at the time we weren’t really friends just acquaintances. She had studied Mechanical Engineering as well, yet for whatever reason we just never really became friends. Then last fall she was the TA and Lab instructor for my physics 2 course. She helped me to gain better understanding and application of the tough conceptual and physical questions. Along the way we realized we had so much in common and found ourselves talking and life outside of engineering and there our friendship was formed. It is an awesome friendship because often one of us is able to say just what the other needs to hear and yet is truthful enough to challenge the other to “do hard things” in order to achieve what we each truly want. She is awesome and such a blessing.
This evening I was talking about my uncertainty of what lies ahead upon graduation. It is something I have been struggling with ever since ending my internship in Ohio. I have been exploring and continue to explore all sorts of options because I just don’t know what is next or what I want to be next. However, K reminded me to look at my strengths and weaknesses and to realize that no matter what I do I will be able to be successful as long as I see the potential in that “investment”. She encouraged me to continue to pursuing these various different options and to learn more about these opportunities and all them to play out a little further. I really needed to be reminded of my drive and my capabilities and for that I am grateful.
Yesterday I also had a conversation with my career adviser, M, who has been helping me along the road for opportunities post-grad. M, encouraged me to start making lists of my top 5 options currently. Within this list to write why I could do it, why I couldn’t. I think I lack confidence in my capabilities and being reminded of my capabilities and drive has been really helpful.
All in all, what I am saying is I don’t know whats next. AND, its ok. It’s ok, because I am learning more about myself, my strengths, weaknesses and being reminded that once I figure out what I want, as long as G-d is also cool with it, then all that’s left is for me and my drive to push further. So unlike my post back in September, I do not feel lost in the maze of life and opportunities. Instead I am in the midst of the maze and searching each door and figuring out which path might lead me in the direction I wish to move. My next move is a question and uncertain, however, isn’t that the beauty in the game, the journey and the road ahead.